wrapping paper

it's been 4 1/2 years since my Mom died, and i still struggle to finish off items that were once hers. as i was wrapping lilli's birthday present, i found some shiny star wrapping paper that was Mom's. i hesitated to actually use it because it would be one more thing of hers that would be gone ~ just like she is. i had to talk myself into using it and that it's ok to finish off something like wrapping paper. simply that wrapping paper does not signify any signs of love from her and isn't a reflection of her death. it seems so silly but it's so difficult at times. the holiday season is a great trigger for all those emotions, i know. it was just odd to be stunned by wrapping of all things!